Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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